Thursday, January 7, 2010

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The past few days are ones that make me think what the hell am I doing here. I should just give up and move into town and be a normal person. It would be so much easier. I'm sure it is just the grief talking. And the weather. Then I look up while I'm feeding the animals and see this.

The high winds are sifting the very fine snow through every little hole in the barn.


Ok, maybe I can stick this out a while longer.

13 comments:

Cindy said...

It's the grief and the cold. A warm hug from St. Louis, Annie!

Julene said...

You are so good - you always manage to find the beauty in every situation. I wish I were more like that!!

sandy said...

those really are lovely images, do your alpaca animals live inside that barn?

Mama Pea said...

You gotta let yourself go through this transition period. I think it's good that you're questioning everything right now. All part of the process. And when you reach the light at the end (and you will!), you'll be sure the decisions you've come to are the best ones for you.

Let it all out. Yell, scream (you couldn't do that in town!), rant, rave, question . . . after the tough times you've experienced, it's a good thing.

Cyndi B. said...

I love your pictures. Do you sell prints?

Leslie said...

Warm hugs from me to you. Lovely pix, appreciate your sharing them.

Lily said...

Your photos are inspiring - I must learn how to use the digital camera our son and daughter bought us for Christmas, especially while all this magical snow is about!

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Thistledog said...

Hang in there; of course it's just the dead-o-winter blues on top of everything else! Sending warm thoughts from San Diego...

Kay

colleenmc said...

You are an incredibly warm and talented person and I cannot thank you enough for sharing your gifts and your thoughts through this blog.

JudyP613 said...

It's minus 7 degrees here this morning and we have had 32.7 inches of snow for the month. That kind of weather saps the energy out of a body. It's cold, it's dark and you can't do anything without risking serious frostbite.

On the plus side, 88 days until the opening day of baseball here and the first sights and sounds of spring.

This too shall pass.

Eyes to See said...

Yes, this too shall pass. That's my favorite expression in the midst of daily challenges. In the eternal scheme of things, these matters don't matter much. But, they do make us look to the Lord more than we do when things are easy. I was wondering yesterday at church why certain parts of the continent were ever settled. I said maybe folks came in the spring or summer and didn't know what they were in for. But, someone reminded me that many of those who immigrated from Northern Europe and Scotland and such places just looked for a spot similar to what they'd known back home. They knew how to survive in such climates. They'd grown up doing so. That made me think. Those of us who were raised in the South aren't trained to cope with what happens this time of year in Montana and N Dakota. It seems impossible. We just had some record breaking freezes here in Central Texas and the temps went into the low teens. Down to 10 I think. That sounds mild compared to what is happening up North, but it was enough to cause a lot of broken pipes down here. We had six on our place break. I guess the bottom line is that adversity is God's university (not my quote). Without it, we'd just stagnate. I think in times of grieving, it is a tremendous help to have animals to attend to. They can't be ignored! We can neglect ourselves, but not them. They rally us to get up and get with it. Do take some more alpaca pics for us; I love those!

CarolynRose said...

Annie, my eye and spirit are always on the lookout for something that snags them, something that says, 'This means something...' Those old tools have probably been used for generations, have probably leaned against that spot in the barn for a long, long time. Things like these, they last. They help us feel like some things don't fall apart; they help hold a world together.
Hope you will hug those big warm snorting creatures of yours. They will help hold you up.
CarolynRose